When I am tired............

I had a friend tell me the other day....  people say why are you looking so tired and the response is I have been tired since the birth of the first child..... ummm for me that is 2001.........  ummmm 11 years of being tired, I think so................................. 
when I get tired I am GRUMPY, MEAN, SHORT, and just plain UGH to be around... is that what the past 11 years have been like , hopefully NO!!!!!!!!!!!!  having 4 kiddos in 9 years can really take a toll on you both physically and mentally, well I am soooooooooooo thankful for grace.. my families grace BUT more importantly HIS grace....

you say what is the definition of grace?
well this is the wikiopedia.......to mean unmerited favor

I am thankful for grace, His grace...... if I did not have Jesus, I would be facing being separated from God eternally and for that I am not OK!... without Jesus we face being separated eternal.....  this is reality!... not popular these days to say BUT it is truth... I am feeling an urgency to share more, share more, share more.

I pray, and pray for those I know and don't know that they would come to a knowledge of Him, of His love, of His grace... 

Romans 1:16.....
16 For I am not ^aashamed of the ^bgospel of Christ: for it is the ^cpower of God unto ^dsalvation to every one that believes; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek.

I love this scripture, one of my favs.....  but as you read it it is pretty clear that it is the power of the gospel that saves....  if we have a gospel starts with Jesus then we have missed the part of who God is, and who we are... I would go as far to say that missing those two things I just mentioned means that we have left some out, so that is not the FULL gospel! some really question why they need Jesus when we live in a world that people think they are pretty good but in Romans it says 3:10 as it is written: “None is righteous, no, not one;  We measure ourselves against others (ie.. people in jail, murders, druggies, neighbors, etc.) when we really should compare ourselves to a Holy God!!!!...  amen! or oh me!!.....  

so as I go back to being tired and how I am when I am tired there is only one word to use to describe me... its SIN!!!.. I don't want to be all those things!.. its just not who I want to be , I want to be more like HIM!!!!...  all to say its grace, for which I am thankful!.. as Ann Voscamp would say... ALL IS GRACE!!!!!...  so thankful since I am in HIM I am forgiven, and when he sees me he sees HIS son!!!!

angela

"passion"

The other day I had a one on one date with Lane... it was a trip to Walmart to get groceries... whoo hooo... NOT!.. but being with my kiddos one on one is a BLESSING and RARE these days!.. I really want to do it more but with time and work and so many other factors I am thankful to the time I do.... BUT this is not what the blog is about :)  don't get me wrong I LOVED EVERY minute of it and we had a GREAT time!... any way!!!!
 
I ran into a friend that I have not seen in about a year, I really do miss her and her family, but as I homeschool, she works and her kiddos go to the local christian school our paths just do not cross that often... so we talked and caught up and her kiddos are getting soooooo big and mature... what happened to the little kiddos???  she ask me about Soul bags and Fox Fever and so I was telling her some neat things that the Lord was doing.. many of you know my passion... Gods word, truths of Gods word and Lords work... I LOVE talking about these things I guess you could say passion... well she made a comment that just got me thinking (since Thursday of last week)... she said "Angela, I love how YOU have such a passion"... well at the time I said thank you because I was thankful that she saw "passion" in my heart for Him and what the Lord was doing............. BUT it got me thinking "should we all have the passion about things of the Lord?" YES!!! of course but in this fallen world, sinful desires, flesh, and idols... how can we have a passion because we are so wrapped up in all these other things.... our minds are so full of temporal things, we are living for this world and not of eternal value stuff... just FYI I struggle with all the above.. I am not at all saying I am better than anyone, I have a plank in this eye! what I am saying is if we all were consumed in His word, His grace and His love, we would have a great heart of passion!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been asking the Lord to give me more of Him, more of Him, More Light, More Light!....  I am thankful she saw "passion" in me but again could I have more?? yes!... can you??? yes!  I am thankful that the Lord puts people in your path to help you realize how short we fall from fully giving all to Him!
I thank God for Cindy, I love her and her family and hoping we can see each other more often!

angela

He really is a hard worker!.. does he ever get sleep??

As i as I lay here tonight and listen to my hubby breath in and out I am having one of those nights when I am so full on the inside and it just make me wanna bubble out... I am so thankful for him!.. he is one of the hardest workers I have EVER met.. this is kinda what his day looks like EVERY day...

4:00 am... alarm goes off... well on the day he runs 3:30 ish
4:15am or 4:30am depends on if Jon his running partner comes to our house or Doug drives there
5:00am shower.. again all depends on "how far" they run!
walking out the door at 6:00am to drive 45 minutes
6:45am at work and BUSY all day long... not just sitting at a desk but cleaning, organizing, moving, inspecting, managing, breaking up fights with employees (well not punching) and the list goes on!... he leaves work about
6:45pm to 7:00pm he gets home to 4 kiddos that are soooooo excited to see another face other than mine LOL!...
this is a day with no soccer.... well this is FRIDAY only!... we have soccer 3 days and church one!

I say all these thing not to make anyone think our schedule is too busy but to bring a thankfulness to my husband who works sooooooo hard to provide for his family! I DO NOT tell him enough that I am in awe of him and his dedication to our family!...  as he just turned over again I hear his breath and just makes me again more thankful!... thanking God that he chose us to be together!...