quiet place closer to the Lord

In a quiet place... even though I am very extroverted because God made me that way , there are times when I find myself in a quiet place inside.. not many post on facebook, not a blog in sight, little longer on responding to text messaging and the list goes on.. I somewhat like this place because it has me in a place closer to the Lord. Focusing on Him and being taken to the woodshed on my sin. praising Him that He is revealing my shortcomings and praising the Lord for Grace.. These times are so good for me. raising 6 kiddos and still having to deal with the drama of bio mom. I need Jesus.. I need His guidance, wisdom, knowledge, presence, love, agape love and the list goes on. My hope is rooted in Christ plus or minus NOTHING! He is all sufficient.. so when God has me in these quiet places I am thankful .

today...

looking at the time it is 7:11 and God has been pressing on my heart to sit and write.. oh my! I have a million things to do to get ready this morning... we have court with J ... I always get this bump in my stomach as we head toward Lagrange. you park on this tiny street and walk into this cold building where you are met by a big man with a gun.. I just chuckle at that .. a big man with a gun!! He immediately greets you with what case are you here with... you almost feel like a criminal. you tell him and you walk through that metal detector.. better not have a belt on or you will BEEP.. BEEP.. head up the stairs into a holding room where you hear lots of chatter. you wait and wait till your case is called and you walk into a court room.. it is DEAD silence... you sit back and pray. I mean this child's life is hinging in the hands of a sinner just like you and I.. it is hard because I just want to stand straight up and say everything I know about the case and plead on behalf of these babies.. this is not fair... dfacs has been involved since birth.. BUT GOD He reminds me to be still.. He reminds me of His sovereignty... before the foundation of the world He knew we would be sitting there at that time and I embrace HIM.. not the words of the judge BUT HIM.. He is the peace in the storm, He is the hope for the hopeless, He is the creator, sustainer, and the very breath of life!.. then peace.... His peace.. amen!

oops... it has happened AGAIN!!!

this blog... I'm so sorry you have been neglected yet AGAIN!!!!! thoughts come through this brain (really you don't want to know how many thoughts come through this brain on a daily basis.. can I just say 6 kiddos, home school and being a wife) so many its hard to keep up!!!! I have thought about you but the daily callings in my life call much louder than you! I want all my thoughts, heart aches, mountain top experiences, and happenings of day to day on her so I can look back and say GOD YOU ARE SO GOOD... even in the heartaches... we have had Thanksgiving,Christmas, 2 foster children that came and left, one of our fosters left and now he is back, M's birthday, new years, CC days, 1/2 marathons, gym meets... and the list goes on!!!.. I love you blog... you remind me of my shortcomings , my joys, my sadness... so all this to say is I will try not to neglect you ANYMORE!!!...