Friday, April 26, 2013

quiet time

My quiet time with God has to be in the morning...
our days seem so loud and busy that if I don't wake well
 before the kiddos there is no "quiet time" till they are tucked nice in their beds at night!..
 
I need this, I need time to just
 
"be still"
"be in His presence"
"be in His word".... 
 
 knowing deep down he is the one who
 
sustains my day
sustains my energy
 sustains my life..... 
 
Even when I sometimes feel far from Him, I know He is there, He is faithful, He is near!
 
So today I began my day with quiet...

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Update on Caleb and Faithfulness of God!

oh. my. word..... 2 weeks ago was the most taxing time in my life that I can remember!.. as most know Caleb has been suffering since September!.. I have worried (know that is a sin, repented!!!!) it is just NOT normal for a 9 year old kid to not be able to run, jump, play, skip without having terrible pains... we had done close to $7000 dollars of blood work with NOTHING... other than Lyme's disease..............   sooooooooo we tried Gluten free, well it worked but still at times he would suffer... I would blame myself when he would start hurting.. like maybe I had got a little lax with food... BUT still something was still not right.. God just kept impressing on me that it was more!

Tuesday of last week I was a whist end, I was done, I had thrown my hands up!  Caleb had been suffering for a week and a half, I mean terribly! he was having a hard time walking with his hip and was just miserable!  to be honest I was REALLY concerned, confused and determined to find out what was ailing my son!.. poor Angela H. she sent me a text to see how Caleb was and I immediately called her back and started sobbing!.. she has NEVER seen or heard me like this!.. thankfully she was full of grace and love!.. then I talked to Ms. Judi and we PRAYED hard for Caleb, and she reminded me of the Saliva test lady.. (my neighbor Darlene) to be honest it was expensive, so I called Doug and I said as I was balling my eyes out.. "honey I need $125.00!!!" of course he hates to see me upset! He said do it! what did we have to lose?? 

Darlene gave me all the tools to do the test and I dropped all the stuff in her mailbox the next morning and with in 2 hours she called me with the results.. remember we had had blood work, prick test and MULPITLE doctors visits since Caleb was a newborn till last Wednesday, with no answers!..

The results were that Caleb was intolerant, sensitive, or allergic to
Corn, Yeast, Gluten, Pork, Shellfish, All Dairy(including goat)

Yes, this is hard BUT we have been on a lean meat, fruit and veggie diet since last Wednesday and I am HAPPY to report that he is doing well! no ailments and he is doing things that all children can do!

I have had many tell me that they are so thankful for me continuing to search for answers for Caleb, I am thankful that God continued to reveal to me that we had something deeper!...

Even in the midst of dark times for Caleb I know God is was faithful, He cares, and He is Good!







Monday, April 15, 2013

so many questions........BUT who am I to question!

So many questions have gone through this brain.. that is my personality anyway... questions??? I once was told that to some people they could think you could have ulterior motives.. thanks Mr. Keith!!! well not the case!      

I love asking questions because....
it helps me know others
helps me be a better listener
helps me to keep the focus off me
and it helps me love more...


I have questioned MANY things in my life! this week has had me ask many questions about fostering...

Are we ready?? I mean were we REALLY ready when we brought Alexis home for the first time...

Can I love more?? I mean yes... I already love FOUR kiddos so much...

Can we afford another mouth to feed?? I mean the Lord has provided each meal in abundance....

Do we have enough room?? I mean our home study lady looked at what I thought was a playroom and she saw it as a nursery.....

Are the kiddos ready to share me more?? I mean they have been bugging me EVERYDAY wanting to know when we are getting a child!!!

so as I have pondered these questions and more I realize........... who am I to question God?... He is my Lord in whom I trust!!! I pray for which ever child the Lord has for us!.. I will give it to Him and He will work out all the details.... I trust! I trust!