yep.. tomorrow is the day... We go to court with 3 of our foster kiddos. such a mix of emotions that really only other foster parents understand! I can try to explain the feelings over and over but a clear picture would never be seen.. its like a humbo jumbo all in one!
I think of the what ifs... the "mad" part of me , the letting go, the list goes on..The struggle is real with the thoughts of letting go but I have to remember that God loves the children more than I do! BUT I have peace... not from the outcome but the peace of the Lord! He is my peace.. I will not be tossed back and forth!
I want to think I am the best parent.. but that is pride! so in the end as we hear the ruling I will walk away knowing I am better because of these children and they will always be etched in our hearts!
I trust the Lord and I know His ways are higher than mine and He gives peace in the midst of the storm.. I remember that He also is the final judge so that is why I pour Jesus in all our children! Thanking the Lord for the overwhelming peace ONLY He can give!
