2 weeks later .... Reflecting!

Its been a little over 2 weeks and here I sit at the computer after this "quiet" place the Lord has had me in!.. oh, how grateful I have been in a quiet place so I can hear Him.. His sweet voice reminding me who I am in Him, How much I am loved, How He provided me a beautiful family, How He sanctified me with the foster boys, How He is worth it, How life is consumed by Him, How I have been blessed by family and friends..... He is the great healer, deliver, sustainer, comforter, and the great I am!

I have reflected over the last 2 weeks and I am so thankful He put our family on this path of fostering. Now don't get me wrong my flesh reared its ugly head MANY times with the system, But God is bigger than the system. I have no doubt God called us to foster! I know that eternal impact is oh so worth the heart ache!...

I miss the boys! the past few  nights we have laughed so hard at a video that Alexis recorded of N... it was a 1 minute video that summed up his personality... our house is quiet... there are days (it sounds weird) that I would like the loudness... But they are gone, but praying the seeds that were scattered are not!...

I have had some catch up time... loving on my friends that I missed soooo much while the boys were here. I FINALLY used my Starbucks gift card that Whitney gave me , I had coffee with a sweet friend Jill, I was able to make dinner for another friend that had been battling sickness in her house, I have been able to talk to some high school friends that are looking into homeschooling, I have sat in the car at the soccer field and have an uninterrupted conversation with Faith, plan a surprise birthday for Michele, hang with my sister, have fun when momma was here, meeting Mindy at the park, taking time for a walk with Lori (5 miles baby!!!), and time with Joe and Lydia (couple that wanted us to walk through their 1st year of marriage, well they have been married for more than that but still meet with us!!! LOVING IT!)and the list could go on!!!!

But most of all I have loved being "our" family for a time! I have LOVED listening to the giggles, fighting, Wii dance, switching faces app, getting a new family member "Lucy", spend the nights, not having to rush out of CC, spending lazy Saturdays laying in bed with Doug, not being "stuck" on a schedule, and again the list could go on and on!!!

We know that time is short before we get the next call... so we stop, love, and thank God for all the many blessings!!!!

bittersweet.... a new journey

I need to be doing everything BUT sitting on this computer writing a blog BUT my heart is so heavy, full, but peaceful! can those all go together... maybe not... BUT today is the day.

The boys that God brought to our home and challenged me in sooooo many ways are leaving... last night I was gathering toys, clothes, knick knacks and I was peaceful.... I am thankful that we had this time to invest in them.

 

We (through the Lords guidence) brought 2 boys that were literally bouncing off the walls to normal boys that had control.

Boys that screamed at the top of their voices to boys that use their inside voice.

Boys that ate so fast with their hands to eating with a fork or spoon.

Boys that had never prayed over a meal to asking for a turn to pray.

Boys that learned how to get along with others (well, most of the time)

Boys that had a warm bed.

Boys who saw what a family is really like.

Boys who had a family pray for them.

Boys who heard that Jesus was really a baby (E had NEVER heard this)

Boys (well really only E)knows what sin is

and so many more things...

 

But today is the day that they take the next journey in their life... praying that all the seeds that were planted here fell sooooooo deep in good soil so they can come to know the Lord as their personal Lord and savior....

 

God has done a great work in Doug and myself revealing our sin and although it was sooooo hard having it revealed I know that God will use it! This was God using this situation to sanctify us more into His image!!!!!!!  oh, how it it painful..... BUT oh, how it is worth it!