today...

looking at the time it is 7:11 and God has been pressing on my heart to sit and write.. oh my! I have a million things to do to get ready this morning... we have court with J ... I always get this bump in my stomach as we head toward Lagrange. you park on this tiny street and walk into this cold building where you are met by a big man with a gun.. I just chuckle at that .. a big man with a gun!! He immediately greets you with what case are you here with... you almost feel like a criminal. you tell him and you walk through that metal detector.. better not have a belt on or you will BEEP.. BEEP.. head up the stairs into a holding room where you hear lots of chatter. you wait and wait till your case is called and you walk into a court room.. it is DEAD silence... you sit back and pray. I mean this child's life is hinging in the hands of a sinner just like you and I.. it is hard because I just want to stand straight up and say everything I know about the case and plead on behalf of these babies.. this is not fair... dfacs has been involved since birth.. BUT GOD He reminds me to be still.. He reminds me of His sovereignty... before the foundation of the world He knew we would be sitting there at that time and I embrace HIM.. not the words of the judge BUT HIM.. He is the peace in the storm, He is the hope for the hopeless, He is the creator, sustainer, and the very breath of life!.. then peace.... His peace.. amen!